我的父母从不尊重我的界限和感受。他们总是来找我并每次都在寻求帮助，我总是帮助他们。But when I have a busy week or feeling overwhelmed and stressed, I tell them to ask my sister for help instead of always relying on me to help them (they rarely ever ask her), and their stupid excuse is that she “doesn’t know” how to do it or how to help. (???) All she has to do is translate something from English to Chinese, and fill out forms generally on a website. I have tried to reason with them and explain to them that I want a balance of responsibility from my sister and I, so it’s not like I am the only one doing all the workload. They always brush it off when I try to explain saying “Okay, Okay.” But then the next day, they don’t even bother asking her and come straight to me for help even though I had warned them it’s a busy week for me and I have a lot of work to do, to ask my sister instead. I am resenting them more and more, and I am always guilt-tripped if I say no. Even when I say no, they don’t go to ask my sister for help. It drives me so mad. Lately, I’ve been so stressed it’s affecting me mentally, emotionally, and physically. I am having chest pains and more anxiety. I feel they don’t care about how I feel. I feel like the only way they would leave me alone is if I die or something.
我讨厌我的家人。我正处于每天推动我的地点，向我施加对待事物。我刚开始学习最近驾驶，因为我的妈妈们抱怨和唠叨我，我需要学习。我上周练习练习试验，我没有通过。所以我付出了更多的课程，但教师预订了所有2个月，我必须等到9月获得更多的课程。他们告诉我找到另一个教练，我只是感到如此沮丧和对他们强调。我知道他们可能有良好的意图，但我现在看不到那个。因为我在工作中感觉如此精神上和情感疲惫，所以我只想独自休息，并不总是追求成就。当他们每天都在提到我的关于驾驶时，它只是加重我这么多，最重要的是，困扰我帮助他们失业。我也没有觉得身体不好，我告诉他们。 Today, my mom was bringing the topic about driving again and I exploded. Of course, she went on yelling and nagging at me for a long time. And of course, she would bring up the past about how I should’ve learned a long time ago and everything I “should’ve” done.
In my head, I can’t stop comparing that they NEVER put this pressure on my sister, would is 20 turning 21. When she would throw a tantrum or show her discontent, my mom just let it go and never yell and nag at her for hours. For me, even a small conflict and she would go off on me and saying other hurtful things like this is why she can’t talk to me and to me sounds like something is wrong with me. Yeah, I am certain that she is her favorite child.